Life is so much more different? I dunno really. Im back shooting again. I must admit that i was considering other ccas for JC. The enthusiasm is no longer as much as it was. I just dont seem to have any luck in shooting no matter how much effort I put in it, and im not getting support for it. Things are changing around me. Alot has changed. But are they for better or for worse. I enjoy going to safra for all the memories it brings. JC is going to be all about studies again, and ive not done any justice to myself and my grades and all who care for me by not being in form. I no longer am dedicated to studying as I was used to. The environment? My grades have been falling steadily. Everyone always gives me different reasons and encourages me to continue saying that I have potential. But what potential? I dun even know?GUNZ ? Table Tennis? Shooting? Projects? Hanging Out? Excuses or Truths? Anyway, life is going to be a routine once again. Shooting and studies. But am i ready to fit in other pieces of jigsaw into my life? The love for pool?gymming ? swimming? hanging out? magic? darts? cycling? table tennis? computer games? cards? Can the jigsaw finally be complete? There is always my passion for shooting, but the enthusiasm is no longer there when I have no one to guide me. Even my coach is not happy 'bout me switching to rifle. I saw it as a way of helping my school as there was a need for rifle shooters. But people see it differently. They think that just because yulin broke his arm. I could capitalize on it. But i think he knows the truth as to why i made the switch. There is more to meets the eye but people would rather see things in a bad light. There is no one really to coach me and I have to rely only on friends for their help. And then again, they are not always there as they have their own commitments.I want to try and train both if I can, but that would be a difficult decision as it would require alot of commitment.There are alot more things that I want to pour out, but I'm grateful to those who have helped There are many things that I want to pour out, but the one thing that I am grateful to the handful of people who have helped me in the middle of December.



sigh... the days are passing too quickly for me to enjoy/ mug..... im not understanding anything in class at all... school's a serious waste of time. and thats how i wasted my entire 3.5 years so far... anyway, im nt gna tok bout the day's events unless im free. ive seriously got some big questions/arguments unanswered. Why is it that people should forget their grudges and forgive and forget, considering the fact that yo have been harmed for many years by different and same people? Why is it that although you have been good, because of something and you want revenge, you are not allowed? Lets take harvey dent-two face from bat man as an example. Harvey dent is some good guy, the white knight of gotham. When his loved one is dead and he is defaced, he becomes two-face. An evil person. At the end of the muvee, batman and the others had this convo, smth bout the joker took the best and most vulnerable guy and tore his good apart, turning him evil. harvey was chosen. Is it the rules and laws that differentiate a good from the bad? A bad man may seek justice in one way but not follow laws and a good man may seek justice but abide by the laws and not feel that satisfied. Is it how well a man can tolerate or for wad reason tht he forgives and forgets and not revenge?



its been a long time since i blogged. nows a great time.... 1 min before im forced to slp. tmr's the prize presentation muz get beauty slp lol. no la jkjk. anw tdy wasnt a great day anw. i mean my maths cct scrwd up. like the song viva la vida, i was once dam good at differentiation, now i panic and scrw up totally. sigh. u r once great , n the nxt day u r nothin. anw i watch the dark knight and have alot to discuss bout. but first... slp tmr i will blog i hope. VIVA LA VIDA!!!



pe was crazy fun. then math lame rubbish. then recess yay. then double el. i wanted to slp, but decided shooting ppl dwn more fun. so when i present sure die. hu cares. got kaiyu to rebutt. xD. then assmbly dam funny. me n leo wanted to tok. so i brought him to some spot dam nice hidden. he continue his installation on his laptop haha. then rosie smith came to find us. she made us go 1 seat dwn. but we still stuck the laptop below the chair and use wireless mouse control it lol. dam funny. then my 2 fts were infront, one slping. then the tok was bout hiv and aids. then at some pt, the speaker askd smth bout how to get hiv/aids. some dude shouted blood transfusion. then the speaker dam funny, he said yep correct casual sex. LOLZ. the whole auitorium laughed liked crazy. then went leo hse do re again. sigh....... tis proj goin no where for now. Look at this nowhere wad did u read it as? now here? or no where? juz realized so kewl when i typed. anw pistol guyz rox, they did dam well. gratz and my gun xD jkjk. then anw my estimation dam zhai sia. juz realized that our model juz the right size.



my life? watch simple plan's vid again n u will noe wad its like.

"Welcome To My Life"

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life




dunno how things will continue. lets take things a step at a time shall we?




Lolol, dam funny lor, leo father dam fast think of that on the spot, suits da well. so pro sia.
anw, i think i lost my bottle somehow in the rush to get out of the car to go to the car. hiaz. mum was quite upset, say i keep losing water bottle. its either in the car or on the grnd. anw i juz realized smth bout my head, its super fragile. i nvr realised until tdy morning...... that sux la. i really dun dare try parkour anymore. not funny lor. anw gotta thx leo mum for hlping me find my bottle. and leonard.......... anw i also dunno how leo fwens gonna all stay over night and do work lolz. our proj quite dead so mebbe in the end might also have to stay overnight. haha. most prob parents wun allow. see how lor. anw im very proud of the trees that i made. so nice. anw gtg




ok tdy i dam guai lor, after sch i go and mug in gel, so guai ritez. mug till like 7. sheesh i thot mebbe go earlier then start earlier, but then leonard nvr come back, so dam wierd. then i had chocolate oreo, so nice.... then started work dam fast, dam tired, so wun tok much, a pix paints a 1000 words, so... enjoy this imba work that we did.


oh and i want to get at least 3.6 duh... but.... reality is nvr meant to be that way. ill try hard lehx, but still difficile rite???