Life is so much more different? I dunno really. Im back shooting again. I must admit that i was considering other ccas for JC. The enthusiasm is no longer as much as it was. I just dont seem to have any luck in shooting no matter how much effort I put in it, and im not getting support for it. Things are changing around me. Alot has changed. But are they for better or for worse. I enjoy going to safra for all the memories it brings. JC is going to be all about studies again, and ive not done any justice to myself and my grades and all who care for me by not being in form. I no longer am dedicated to studying as I was used to. The environment? My grades have been falling steadily. Everyone always gives me different reasons and encourages me to continue saying that I have potential. But what potential? I dun even know?GUNZ ? Table Tennis? Shooting? Projects? Hanging Out? Excuses or Truths? Anyway, life is going to be a routine once again. Shooting and studies. But am i ready to fit in other pieces of jigsaw into my life? The love for pool?gymming ? swimming? hanging out? magic? darts? cycling? table tennis? computer games? cards? Can the jigsaw finally be complete? There is always my passion for shooting, but the enthusiasm is no longer there when I have no one to guide me. Even my coach is not happy 'bout me switching to rifle. I saw it as a way of helping my school as there was a need for rifle shooters. But people see it differently. They think that just because yulin broke his arm. I could capitalize on it. But i think he knows the truth as to why i made the switch. There is more to meets the eye but people would rather see things in a bad light. There is no one really to coach me and I have to rely only on friends for their help. And then again, they are not always there as they have their own commitments.I want to try and train both if I can, but that would be a difficult decision as it would require alot of commitment.There are alot more things that I want to pour out, but I'm grateful to those who have helped There are many things that I want to pour out, but the one thing that I am grateful to the handful of people who have helped me in the middle of December.